The forecast called for thunder showers today, and though the sky was dark all day, the rain held off. After spending the morning nursing a headache, I grabbed my camera and headed down to the waterfront. Along the way, I stopped in a small park and snapped a few pictures of the flowers. I also took pictures at the new Sherbourne Commons. The new park has an interesting water feature that also serves as a water filtration system – the first of its kind in Canada.
The picture of the flower bud above is somewhat symbolic. Yesterday, I spent much of the day cleaning out a closet and carting stuff to the garbage or donation bin. I’m clearing space in my apartment – and my life – to make room for a new beginning.
A year and a half ago, I was between jobs and contemplated striking out on my own – focusing on my writing and doing freelance projects. But the prospect of not having a regular pay cheque and benefits was frightening. I think I was also scared of the idea of not being defined by my job title; I still needed external validation to feel like I was doing something useful. Now, I’m giving up my job and benefits and I’m okay with it. I know now that I must pursue my dreams because I can no longer be happy when my work and identity is defined by someone else.